View From My Window

In silence, I looked at a window. I "see" myself at the other side of the window. I "see" myself so busy working at the other side.

Everyday, from Monday to Friday I am just as exhaust.

Everyday, from Monday to Friday I am just as stressful.

Everyday, from Monday to Friday I am just as frightening.

Everyday, from Monday to Friday I am just as traffic jam.

Everyday, from Monday to Friday I am just as so on and so for.

When it comes to Saturday. I see myself...

smiling, at least. Saturday is my day and I am allowing NOTHING to disturb me. The only day I find myself me again.

For the rest of the day, I am a zombie.

I had one great brunch with my great sisters. By the way, I have many great sisters. And, of course one lovely girl friend. [I better emphasize this]

My Saturday is my good day. However without these great people in my life, my Saturday is going to be my another good-zombie day.

The brunch I had today told me something. Everyday the things surrounding me tell me something. My head can interpret "their" "language". Am a zombie, by the way.

WuuuwWaaaa`...

1.) The time is running so quick. When was my graduation day again? And the next thing I know is. Am working already. I have one sister who is graduating soon.

Today she had her very last paper for her degree. I remembered the day I had my last paper. The moment I stepped out the examination hall. I felt one kind inside. It was a mixed feeling.

I said goodbye to my friends. And clearly I knew that.. it was my last goodbye to them that very day. I can no longer see those familiar faces the next day anymore.

But. So deep inside. I felt so GREAT. Huaaahahaha`...

2.) Do I shine my life? Am I living out my life just as Jesus told. To be the light and salt in the world. Am I shining? Or I may be shining. It shines like a match for this moment.

Or maybe you used to shine so bright but now you're dimming..

Am seeing myself still a baby. Am soft like a bread. Maybe because am small in size. Sometimes I so happen tends to become low self-esteem, serious.

Just like Naturo. He used to be all alone. Everyone is avoiding him and never recognized his existence. He was sad.

I am small in size. People may happen to so easily neglect my existence. They cannot see me!

I thank my God because He has his children around me to recognize me. To accept me into the group. To listen my heart beat. Boop Boop Boop.. Am existing.

To share love, joy, tears and laughter.

Time is running out. I shall be shining brighter and brighter.

I know I am not alone in this place. There are people who recognize me and I shall turn from a "soft bread" into a mighty "fried chicken" (炸鸡) one day. I tell you.. without achieving my goal I am not going to be..

appetizer. Because, appetizer means "the end". It is served as the last meal. And it is always the most delicious to be eaten. I bless my brothers and my sisters. We all have a great "delicious appetizer" one day.

By then, I promise to buy myself a..

Maybe a Honda first.